Heart-breaking letter to Santa asks for “big miracle”

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Letter to Santa

Dear Santa,

My name is Carl and I am a five-year-old. I have been extra good all year and I really wish that you make my dream come true. My letter may sound a little strange to you because I’m sure that most kids ask for toys but at the moment I need another miracle, a big miracle.

My dad lost his job last March because of the pandemic which my parents have been talking about. He thought that after a couple of weeks everything will be fine but till now he still doesn’t have a job. My mother cannot work because she takes care of me.  They say I’m vulnerable so I cannot even go to school.

I really miss my friends but for now I know I need to stay in and safe. I was born with kidney problems and I had to spend many weeks at the hospital so that the doctors and nurses could make me better. Doctors are very happy and say that I am getting better  because I can have a normal life but at the moment nothing seems to be normal, not even for others.

For the first weeks everything remained the same, my parents managed to save some money so we had enough money for food and necessities but  one night, when I couldn’t sleep, I overheard my parents talking and they were saying that they do not have enough money to pay their rent and other bills. Dad said that if my parents pay rent,  we will not have enough money for food.  

In May we went to live with my grandma but dad said we couldn’t remain there. I think that he had a fight with grandma, they screamed a lot. I was so scared and lost. I thought that when we left grandma’s house, that we were going to live in another house with my parents, but my mummy said that we will be going to live in a residential home, Dar Niki Cassar. I didn’t know what that was. I had never heard of a residential home before, so I got even more confused. My parents tried to explain to me that for some time we had to move into a home and live with other families and people. I couldn’t understand what was happening. Why couldn’t we live alone? 

Why do we have to live with people we do not know? Will we be safe? Will someone try to harm mummy and daddy? I picture it and I still cry when I think about that moment. Before moving in the house we had to get tested for the virus, we went through procedures due to the virus. Then the day arrived.

So,we went to a big place and people working at this home were asking mum and dad many questions. They were so nice to us but I couldn’t stop crying.

It was a very hot evening in July, I remember every detail. Staff was so nice to us and after a couple of days I was not scared anymore. However, I know that we still have a lot of problems which mum and dad have to solve. One of the big kids that live here with her family told me that everything will be fine. She said that with all the help and support things should start getting better. Her words gave me hope and more trust in the nice people working there.

Dear Santa, now I can tell you what my big wish is. For Christmas I would like to see a smile on my parents’ face. I would like them to believe in themselves and also to stop feeling guilty about our situation. It is not their fault.

I would love to go to school but at the moment I know it’s not possible so instead i’m just asking for my friend at the residential home to spend more time with me. 

For the people living here at Dar Niki Cassar, I wish that, one day, they start dreaming again and have their own home too. They have been so nice to us even though they are living in a residential home, they deserve to be happy too. 

Finally, I wish that things go back to the way they were before. Don’t get me wrong, we are being cared for and we are provided with all needs. I have made a lot of new friends here.  But I miss the old times. 

For my friend from Somalia, he is a bit older than me, I wish that he finds his dad. He says that he is probably lost at sea but I tell him to keep hoping. If this is not possible, please give him enough strength to face this reality even though he is really young.

I’m not broken because I’m surrounded with love.

Dear Santa, I don’t want to leave you in a sad mood. We decorated the place and it’s wonderful. We have a Christmas tree, we have colourful lights, we have a crib and a Baby Jesus too. The staff is doing their best to make us feel home and it really does feel like home. I heard that they are also going to give us a Christmas present (Santa, I saw them, I saw my present, but don’t tell them, I want to surprise them). The other residents love me as well, I’m the youngest so everybody is giving me a lot of attention and I am being spoiled a lot. Yes, don’t worry I’m in good hands. I’m not broken because I’m surrounded with love.

Santa, before I end up this letter I need to ask a question. Is it true that you go around the world in one night. If it’s true can you tell me how to do it? 

Thank you for spreading happiness, hope and love & please take care of all humanity 

Say hello to Mrs Claus, your elves, reindeers and North Pole Christmas team

From Jake

‘Dar Niki Cassar’ is a YMCA residential facility for homeless individuals, families and children experiencing ‘homelessness’ and ‘rooflessness’. Visit their website for more information about our services. You can help them by sending a blank SMS on 50619212 for a donation of € 11.65.

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